2005-05-21
at 10:54 a.m.
Clothes
All the tests are finally gone. And I guess I'm supposed to be happy about it. But I'm not. There's still that physics performance task, the prospect of wasting my holidays away at NUS, bio performance task, chinese performance task, that great singapore sale and my empty wallet.
I was feeling really stressed, really obese and really depressed this morning (and I still am, but that's not the point). So I went to clear my wadrobe. Which made me even more depressed. I threw away 24 pieces of clothing. Actually gave it away to the salvation army. (It was originally 30, then while looking through the clothes I started to pick some out again. It irritates me how I feel like keeping everything but want to throw them away. I'll get to that later.) But what I really feel like doing is throwing 80 pieces of clothing out and going out RIGHT NOW to buy an entire wadrobe full of new clothes. And I would seriously do that, except that I don't have the money. It's stupid, looking at how I have rearranged my closet. There's this tiny set of clothes that I have mentally labelled "Clothes I Actually Wear". There's a gigantic stack that is labelled "Clothes That I Didn't Really Want In The First Place". Theres an EVEN LARGER stack that is labelled "Clothes That I Don't Want To Wear But I Could Wear To Sleep. Or Something.". Then there are a few more random stacks: "Clothes That I Want To Throw Away But Can't Bring Myself To Because They Are Too Expensive", "Clothes That I Keep Because My Mum Wants Me To", "Clothes That I Keep Because I'm Emotionally Attached", "School Shirts That I Keep Because I Have To", "Clothes That Were Gifts But I Don't Want To Wear" and the infamous "Clothes That I Have Worn Once And Don't Want To Wear Again But Keep Anyway Because It's Such A Waste" and it's cousin stack "Clothes That I Have Never Worn And Don't Intend To Ever But Keep Anyway Because You Never Know".I am hopeless.